its so saddening to go school everyday ,friendless ):

&i donte freaking uds why that freaking new class mate just have to rub it in by telling his friend he feels awkward to have me sitting beside him.
what th fuck is awkward when im sitting in th corner of th class with a whole class of strangers ,people who i ve never even took a look at before & he thinks that he feels awkward.

sigh. but im good, kinda got used to th type of weird look people give me.
&im gald there is still familiar faces in some class.
ohwell, just fucking wish i can graduate soon.


then there's this sudden concern from my dearest brother about who im out with lately.
its just so sick. i carn freaking understand why th fuck does he do that for.
his childish narrowmind just carn freaking widern up .
i think im mature enuff to make my own decision of who im seeing.
im not gonna freaking let him go just becuz of a conflict which probably didnt even took place.
even if it did, people changed. &its all in th past, you carn expect me to judge a person when you carn even fuly tell me everything.
you donte tell people ,hey ,that guy is bad stop hanging out with him &expect people to take whatever you said & cloud their judgement.


im just so tired.
i donte know what to think ,what to do anymore.
i tried explaining &nothing goes into your stubborn brain.

i really tried.

im sorry.