A facade of all facades, a mask behind masks.
Thursday, May 28, 2009/12:25 AM
rights, school was alright. baby told me today, news reports first case of h1n1 .not that im am any more concern about it than the flabby arms vibrating as i type in this space.
omfg, i feel fat, i rather get swine flu !
must stop mass eating food baby. i donte care if you love me any lesser if im skinner. :(
i want to diet! oh no,donte love me any lesser, hehe. i know you love me all the same.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009/1:13 AM
i have got nothing to do now. massive headache.
i should i known better not to oversleep and miss school.
i just checked ,and my netfund attendance is alrd 85% not counting today.
& it just means, high chance of failing ,again :c
so dead. must remind myself to check mail everyday, look out for mass spam warning letters .
ps: baby, donte blame yourself on my attendance,thou you never did. :p
xo,
m
i should i known better not to oversleep and miss school.
i just checked ,and my netfund attendance is alrd 85% not counting today.
& it just means, high chance of failing ,again :c
so dead. must remind myself to check mail everyday, look out for mass spam warning letters .
ps: baby, donte blame yourself on my attendance,thou you never did. :p
xo,
m
Saturday, May 16, 2009/11:31 AM
yesterday work was like hell.
i worked from 12pm to 5am. & i swear custs got really irritated by me.
i was really feeling so bad i was literally shivering ,whole body aching & head hurting lie crazy.
thankfully the panadol wonders kicked in fast enuff &i felt somehow normal.
baby came at 5am & we cabbed back.
he actually gave me menstrual panadol -.- haa. at least the headache went off after awhile &i felt better in the morning. thanks baby, lovelove!
im feeling cold again,& after an arguement with grandma the headache is back.
:(
ohwell, just hope i get better in the night.
fuckloads of ♥,
M
i worked from 12pm to 5am. & i swear custs got really irritated by me.
i was really feeling so bad i was literally shivering ,whole body aching & head hurting lie crazy.
thankfully the panadol wonders kicked in fast enuff &i felt somehow normal.
baby came at 5am & we cabbed back.
he actually gave me menstrual panadol -.- haa. at least the headache went off after awhile &i felt better in the morning. thanks baby, lovelove!
im feeling cold again,& after an arguement with grandma the headache is back.
:(
ohwell, just hope i get better in the night.
fuckloads of ♥,
M
Thursday, May 14, 2009/1:50 AM
it wasnt a typical wednesday.
:)
i had lunch with love,and she told me about her love life.
"hey love, choose what you really think is right and choose what you really want and be happy,im always here for you k ? [:"
sounds familiar? no matter what's your decision, i carn interfere, but when you need someone to talk to, i think im quite a good listener. :)
i heard your past, & i know you hate him for everything he has done.
but,what doesnt kill you made you stronger.
one imfamous phrase from me, wounds heal, if you let it and not poke it to see if its still there.
i believe whatever that's gonna happen to you,nothing is gonna be as bad as the past.
i think today was one hell of a killing brain cells day,
both love got me thinking so much. :P
Dear Mr yeo, i ♥ you. for your unconditional love and care for me.
im sorry you lost trust on me.
but you know it,for you i wouldnt mind letting the whole world of guys down.
_______________________________________________________________
okay, back to normal life.
im hook on restuarant city. &im damn pissed with the hack.
carn seems to get it right. im so jealous of people with nice restuarant :(
need to sleep.hee.
nights world.
:)
i had lunch with love,and she told me about her love life.
sounds familiar? no matter what's your decision, i carn interfere, but when you need someone to talk to, i think im quite a good listener. :)
i heard your past, & i know you hate him for everything he has done.
but,what doesnt kill you made you stronger.
one imfamous phrase from me, wounds heal, if you let it and not poke it to see if its still there.
i believe whatever that's gonna happen to you,nothing is gonna be as bad as the past.
i think today was one hell of a killing brain cells day,
both love got me thinking so much. :P
Dear Mr yeo, i ♥ you. for your unconditional love and care for me.
im sorry you lost trust on me.
but you know it,for you i wouldnt mind letting the whole world of guys down.
_______________________________________________________________
okay, back to normal life.
im hook on restuarant city. &im damn pissed with the hack.
carn seems to get it right. im so jealous of people with nice restuarant :(
need to sleep.hee.
nights world.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009/1:01 AM
its a fucking Wednesday morning. :(
hate Wednesday, im going to have my first ever psychology class later.
crap, i donte know how to explain my three consecutive absence since the first lesson.
oops.
feeling fat these day.
haa. have been eating too much, its true that people who are in love tends to grow fat right.
ohwell, should start jogging very soon when feeling fats overwhelm feeling lazy. haa.
&i hate database lecture. tell on me today, called my home and told grandma that i skipped lessons.
i think im gonna fail that anyway, haa. so much for wanting to pass all subject this sem.
shall go sleep now.
nights world <3
hate Wednesday, im going to have my first ever psychology class later.
crap, i donte know how to explain my three consecutive absence since the first lesson.
oops.
feeling fat these day.
haa. have been eating too much, its true that people who are in love tends to grow fat right.
ohwell, should start jogging very soon when feeling fats overwhelm feeling lazy. haa.
&i hate database lecture. tell on me today, called my home and told grandma that i skipped lessons.
i think im gonna fail that anyway, haa. so much for wanting to pass all subject this sem.
shall go sleep now.
nights world <3
any day is a special day
Monday, May 11, 2009/12:35 AM
we probably started on the wrong foot.
we probably made the most horrible decision.
But it was a night to remember.
it was A's birthday,we were at town , planning to head to the club.
he saw salesperson giving out flowers, he grab one &gave it to A .
it was only much later till he told me, "the flower was actually for you ,but it was her birthday".
we went to phuture that night.
i wasnt thinking much just drinking.
i had massive mouth diarrhea & was barely able to control it.
&....
i vomited.. on about half of his body :/
the rest of the night was spent on his lap.
i swear i dont remember who initiated the kiss, cuz i was gone.
but since he said i did, anything that makes him happy then :)
...
it wasnt at all simple then.
you probably had seen me going on hiatus for a while.
but only one night ,was worth to mention.
that night.he finally ask to b given a chance.
not to be forgiven ,but to prove how much he can love me...
to lead my life thru whatever it takes.
no fancy dinner ,no movies, no proposal.
just a simply special night.
because im with the special you :)
happy 5th monthsary baby ,mwah.
we probably made the most horrible decision.
But it was a night to remember.
it was A's birthday,we were at town , planning to head to the club.
he saw salesperson giving out flowers, he grab one &gave it to A .
it was only much later till he told me, "the flower was actually for you ,but it was her birthday".
we went to phuture that night.
i wasnt thinking much just drinking.
i had massive mouth diarrhea & was barely able to control it.
&....
i vomited.. on about half of his body :/
the rest of the night was spent on his lap.
i swear i dont remember who initiated the kiss, cuz i was gone.
but since he said i did, anything that makes him happy then :)
...
it wasnt at all simple then.
you probably had seen me going on hiatus for a while.
but only one night ,was worth to mention.
that night.he finally ask to b given a chance.
not to be forgiven ,but to prove how much he can love me...
to lead my life thru whatever it takes.
no fancy dinner ,no movies, no proposal.
just a simply special night.
because im with the special you :)happy 5th monthsary baby ,mwah.
Sunday, May 10, 2009/10:09 AM
staying any min more in here is just gonna drive me to insanity.
i can never never convince her with anything i said.
the most infuriating part is shes never wrong ,yet she still wants to ask.
crazy shit.
i can never understand how she trust my bro so much,take in every word he says.
just becuz there used to be a misunderstanding towards K ,she thinks his the bad guy.
just becuz i dropped my ezlink card at parklane ,she blames it on K for bringing me to play lan.
just becuz i stay out till late cuz there is nothing for me to do at home,she blames it on K.
i donte know how more ridiculous this can get
sigh, i'll never see the end of this.
i can never never convince her with anything i said.
the most infuriating part is shes never wrong ,yet she still wants to ask.
crazy shit.
i can never understand how she trust my bro so much,take in every word he says.
just becuz there used to be a misunderstanding towards K ,she thinks his the bad guy.
just becuz i dropped my ezlink card at parklane ,she blames it on K for bringing me to play lan.
just becuz i stay out till late cuz there is nothing for me to do at home,she blames it on K.
i donte know how more ridiculous this can get
sigh, i'll never see the end of this.
My love for a condemned.
Thursday, May 7, 2009/10:45 PM
I went through hell having a battle between good and evil.i was lost but an angel,one whom did not mind me being condemned. she rescued me and here she is. My socially awkward tiger.Even thou an angel.she still needs th utmost care and love.i donte mind giving my all.but she must prove worthy. :)i love you baby!
-k
baby,the past one week or two was like hell to me too. i shouldnt be comparing, but th feeling of losing you was terrible. it felt like the one who was directing my life had dumped me on a crossroad,on his crossroad. ironically, we went back to where we first started. it was terrible having to see you struggle. All i could do was to stand by you &i never did see myself as an angel who rescued you. i was th devil who wanted this love to be so perfect that i forced you ,pushing you to your limits for an answer. until you finally decided that this socially awkward tiger makes her own decision. you probably didnt know that you were the only who urged me to hold on. in my mind i was weak,desperate to get out of the circle, but i knew i had to be stronger for this once in my life.
& finally i got you.
if there is an expiry date for your love for me ,make it forever.
beccuz baby, from the moment you said you love me.
i'be loving you long time.
♥m
-k
baby,the past one week or two was like hell to me too. i shouldnt be comparing, but th feeling of losing you was terrible. it felt like the one who was directing my life had dumped me on a crossroad,on his crossroad. ironically, we went back to where we first started. it was terrible having to see you struggle. All i could do was to stand by you &i never did see myself as an angel who rescued you. i was th devil who wanted this love to be so perfect that i forced you ,pushing you to your limits for an answer. until you finally decided that this socially awkward tiger makes her own decision. you probably didnt know that you were the only who urged me to hold on. in my mind i was weak,desperate to get out of the circle, but i knew i had to be stronger for this once in my life.
& finally i got you.
if there is an expiry date for your love for me ,make it forever.
beccuz baby, from the moment you said you love me.
i'be loving you long time.
♥m
Sunday, May 3, 2009/9:14 AM
i donte wish to go for a hiatus forever.
i know sometime somehow, i have to come out and face it.
i had wish that i could press the fast forward button till may 29th.
they say be careful what you wish for,cuz you just might get it.
i got what i wanted ,an answer.
i probably never really knew what i wanted, all i ever want was a cue,a cue to leave or to stay.
i carn deny and pretend that im happy with the decision he ve made.
but i couldnt say anything becuz i no longer wish to turn th tables anymore.
i donte know why by th 3rd time he still chose to walk away i couldnt cry anymore.
probably becuz i was already sick ,sick & tired of th end.
it really upsets me to know that was probably the last ever im gona hear from him again.
but i realise that would be th least i need to do,to stand by his decision and never look back again.
words can never really tell th story.
theres just too little love& too many complication
too little happiness, too much scars
friends, do me a favour by never asking about it again.
i just want to walk thru this on my own.
i know sometime somehow, i have to come out and face it.
i had wish that i could press the fast forward button till may 29th.
they say be careful what you wish for,cuz you just might get it.
i got what i wanted ,an answer.
i probably never really knew what i wanted, all i ever want was a cue,a cue to leave or to stay.
i carn deny and pretend that im happy with the decision he ve made.
but i couldnt say anything becuz i no longer wish to turn th tables anymore.
i donte know why by th 3rd time he still chose to walk away i couldnt cry anymore.
probably becuz i was already sick ,sick & tired of th end.
it really upsets me to know that was probably the last ever im gona hear from him again.
but i realise that would be th least i need to do,to stand by his decision and never look back again.
words can never really tell th story.
theres just too little love& too many complication
too little happiness, too much scars
friends, do me a favour by never asking about it again.
i just want to walk thru this on my own.
best
Friday, May 1, 2009/3:18 PM
I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me todayI'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
Damn that's sad
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me
