you know how it feels like when you wake up every morning and you feel like, this is so sick.
and every night before you sleep you think this is so unfair.
& th more you think about it the more upset you get.

so,i planned my schedule thinking im gna spend some quality time this month with K.
&guess what, he have to sleep in fusion waiting for me to end work at 2/3am when he have to wake up at 5am to book in.
and my only fucking off day is Thursday and Sunday.
my original schedule was Monday full,Tuesday and Wednesday morning, Friday night and the rest off.
now Monday AND Wed full ,Tuesday morning. Friday AND Saturday NIGHT.


just becus some fucking people say th shedule given wasnt what they wanted i ve to be th one giving in. I DIDNT FUCKING ASK FOR IT.
neither was i given a choice to say no.
yeah i know, im just a part time worker who should have no say.
but i just dont fucking uds why others can get what they asked for and i dont have a fucking choice.

this is only th fucking first weekday, i carn imagine th weekend. neither can i bear th thought of th rest of th month.

sometimes i really feel like just forfeiting one whole month of pay and just dont turn up at all.
it really doesnt pay to be nice ,when everyone else only have their fucking own interest at heart.